Writings from the past

I’m not comfortable in my own skin

I’m reliving my past and all the places I’ve been 

It always seemed to mean so much

But now meaning is something I can’t touch

Time has been moving way too fast

And still I can find nothing that lasts

I’ve been searching my soul for inspiration

Searching my life for some motivation

I tried to rearrange my stars

But found I couldn’t reach that far

I need to find something to live for

Before life closes the door

On all of my dreams which have yet to come true

And if they never do, what else is new?

I’m used to the feelings of emptiness and loss

I let my fleeting feelings be the boss

I’ve given everything I can give

But I can’t remember how to really live

My mind wanders to worlds unknown

Seeing things it shouldn’t be shown

I see all sides on any issue

And dream about how I would like to kiss you

But I don’t perceive things as they are

I feel like a bug stuck in a jar

I still don’t conceive what life’s all about

All the things I thought I knew 

Now fill me with doubt

I can only hope that things will change soon

Maybe something will happen on the full moon

Birmingham, Alabama ~2001

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